A Place For My Head

hello livejournal and to the world.
this update is just to make you guys sure that i'm still alive and kicking!
back to gaming yo!

I've been really busy for the whole week. be in school activities or other commitment.
so many things happening, I barely had enough time to even breathe.
Sometimes I really try hard not to disappoint others and myself but some things just happen and pull me down hard.
sigh, sometimes I just don't know what to do when situation like this arise.
Had no one else to blame except me.
now I even have phobia for it. I don't know la,
I just hope I'll find a way soon to fix those things that have been broken.

Today went to school for some mini soccer competition. It was a pretty last minute thing but still I just played.
Could have won the competition but we lose it due to mistakes once again. nevertheless, we still got the second place and brought home a new ball. After that, went to botanic garden to take do photography assignment was pretty reluctant at first cause botanic garden really look boring but as I go deeper in, there were nicer things to see so yea, took a couple of shots and went home.

 
These are the places that I can feel
torn from my body, my flesh it peels. 
during this ride we can cut up what we like.
Waiting alone i cannot resist, 
feeling this hate i have never missed.
Please someone give me a reason to peel off my face

Blood it is pouring...

hurhur i just finish my report which is due on last friday! =.=" hahaha it's really last minute and with very little help I think I did not bad la for it. I just wanna know how a real report should look like so if there's any year 3 senior looking at this entry please hit me back and send me your report k! i just wanna see the format! thanks x) suddenly I like some old songs back again.. american rejects - swing swing...relient k - give until there's nothing left.. beautiful song with nice lyrics! if you havent heard them u better listen to them soon! imeem or youtube is a good source (:

No one told me
The right way
The right way to go about this
So I'll figure it out for myself
Cause how much
Is too much
To give you
Well I may never know
So I'll just give until there's nothing else
..

No one told me
How bad I need you (need you)
But I somehow arrived
To that conclusion all by myself (all by myself)
And I want
All you have to offer (to offer)
So I offer myself and I'll just give until there's nothing else.

Photography, sepak takraw  , floorball is fun.
studying isn't, especially when you don't know what the teacher is teaching. Right now, I have come to a conclusion that it's really the teacher to be blame. cause they can't teach for nuts. Given their knowledge, i would definitely do a better job. 200% sure. result was good but wasn't really the standard i wanted. I aim perfection and nothing less. why score lesser when you can score more ? make sense? yes. there's lot of assignments to be done and i'm gonna discipline myself for that hopefully.

some people fall in and out of love easily, like really damn fast ? LIKE CHANGING CLOTHES SIA..
yuck fou la homo. being in a long term relationships/many bgr relationships before doesn't mean you really know what love is. For all you know, the shit that you're experiencing is just some dumb ass crush feeling which die off damn easily so please please, don't anyhow say you're in love with someone la, knn really eyesore can ? i myself don't even know what love is but i fucking sure know that whoever in the situation i mentioned above also don't know what love is.i think love is really too strong a word to use la hor.maybe wait till you're really gonna get marriage dat time then say you're in love and i'll be convinced.THE WORST SHIT TO DO IS TO ACT ALL ROMANTIC WITH UR NICKNAMES. all those love quotes or bullshit that you thought of when you were stoning or whatever.wah, seriously make you look damn soft and gay can ?zzzzz homos. what has your schoool taught you? is this the side effect of studying too much nerd ? -.-" okay enough said, maybe now you should go and fold ur gay paper hearts for you "lover" _|_

i didn't update cause i'm not happy at all.
there's nothing happy for me to talk about or describe here.
some things are better left unsaid.

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three R’s: Respect for self Respect for others and Responsibility for all your actions.
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
7. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. It’s a way to achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.
17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

~ Dalai Lama.

 

hahaha i'm happy! today i started out my day feeling dull and all and I had to drag myself to BBDC to do my practice and evaluation at the same time.felt kinda dumb during the practice but thankfully there's answers for me to learn from mistake! then evaluation time..I PASSED! woot like the sex siol! hahaha, now must wait till 31 July for the riding theory test (: faster clear! faster get license faster happy xD nothing can be better than a morning breakfast: mee rebus, some funny mandarin orange green tea which tasted suprisingly nice and Calbee Potato chips! (: supposed to have a practical later but I'm feeling lazy and I guess i will give it a miss. lots of assignments to do still for this holiday so I better run!

As I took the normal path home, the long walk got my mind pretty busy thinking about lots of stuff.
Things like past relationships, friendship and all. and I told myself that today I'm going to update with something meaningful, if it's not to you, well at least to me I hope.Looking back now, I realised that I've met lots of beautiful soul in life which I didn't treasure much at all.As much as I regret not treasuring them, I guess I couldn't do anything much about it anymore about the situation now that time has really fly fast. Sometimes, I wish I could just go back time and repeat all those things I've been through with them again.But the reality is, It's all over and done with and there's nothing I could do about it. Honestly, I regret why I didn't do some of the things I SHOULD do and of course vice versa; doing things I shouldn't do. Right now, when I try to amend what was wrong is the first place, I just couldn't do it at all.I don't know where to start, or even how to begin with, and when I really just try, it didn't turn out the way it's suppose to be. People change over time and things wasn't like how it was before. Growing up; it seems to me ; a long painful learning journey. which we learn how to let go. It's easier said than done. I  still can't believe how some things turn out to be now. Friends going astray, no longer in contact etc, it hurts badly to know that's there nothing much you could do to help the situation ): All these happened for some reasons and one of the reason has got to do with me. If I had done something about it earlier on, maybe things would be better now somehow. sigh, so full of regrets. sometimes I just don't know how to carry on with things. I always aim for perfection in some areas but as a result, some things are neglected along the way. Today, I said many hurtful things to my friends which I really regret. Even though they seems to know that I'm just joking, I know that deep down inside,I hurt a little still.I know. I was in their shoe before. I'm sorry.I should be more thoughtful of their feelings. I hope I wouldn't repeat such actions again cause I'll never know if small things such as this could actually hurt friendship ties.big things start from small. so I'll do my best from now on to put in more effort in whatever stuff I do, be it maintaining a friendship or other stuff.

if you could give me one more chance to amend what's wrong, I would do this all right.

I honestly didnt receive the 10 dollars everyone received today after the event. Fucker don't know what that little cunt is thinking. sometimes maybe i should just hurt some soul and break some bones.

I've completed a game like finally after so long in my life. God Of War! chain of olympus (: psp yo!



and yes i updated just to say this!

Today is a happy day!
Firstly it mark the beginning of my holiday ( not really with all those assignments on my sleeve but yeah! more slack of course! )
secondly, i went to did something today!
Thirdly, I received a mail from Netherlands! LOL. free operating system yo. Shiok hor ^^

Tomorrow go school ton! Sacony 100Plus run followed by class bbq ! followed by monday soccer!
holiday is the sex!

This week also known as a common test week, hasnt been really going on well for me. All started well with MDES fully mugged and understand personally ( without much help for the cowboy teacher ). Was expecting some tough questions but turn out pretty easy. But day by day, things turn out worst. As the days pass by, I have lousier and lousier feeling about how I will perform for this round of common test.By the end of the third day, I'm already feeling all shagged and on the verge of giving up. Though, it's the last stretch tomorrow, I honestly have lost the mood to carry on. You know, the feeling is damn horrible, when you actually work for something, and it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to be. That's the reason why I actually blogging now at 2am + instead of studying ( which i had initially planned to do ) Sigh,  no matter what, i'm not gonna let my sacrifice of my sleep go to waste, I'm gonna force myself to study in a short while.

On a lighter note, I have actually top-up my prepaid mobile already. (: enrolment is really soon also!

Pictures! Pictures! Pictures! Night cycling pictures (:

Ahh feeling refreshed after a nice shower. Note the time though, it's 7.22 am in the morning! Sunday (: and just got home after a whole night of cycling with good old buddies, bing chia, kaisheng, jeremy and me! hahah, set off from home at 8 and till 7 i was cycling, about 7 hours of non-stop cycling, exclusive all those breaks we had in between.Sure it was a damn long journey , I think the furthest I have gone, or maybe the most insane mileage ever, about 7/8 of the journey on the roads. what the hell sia, super risky , and horns were often heard . But going down Mount Faber is sure damn fun! I felt like valentino rossi , so fast on a bike taking a turn. just that the only difference is that he used a real bike and lay real low with his knee cap touching the floor la. If I had done that, I think I wouldnt be back home now but at the hospital doing surgery instead! haha! Mum was super worried cause it's like the second time only i went to night cycling, initially I thought we would end around 1 or 2 but turn out we're gonna cycle till the morning.Mum was nagging when I told the change of plan. Worried as hell, but still I'm grateful to have a mother like her. Thank God! (: Sure it was some mad cow cycling experience, with us stopping over at Plaze Sing,ECP trying to camwhore a little bit ,Esplanade to chill and all.The phototaking at Plaza Sing is damn hilarious! I actually called a random guy of the pave walking and i called out "excuse me" about thrice before I actually caught his actions.When we told him to take a picture for us and pass him the camera phone, he use it the other way!hahaha! the four of us can see his face on the screen when he's actually trying to see through the camera "hole" which is actually the digital lens hahaaha, damn freaking funny I tell you. If not for his gf that told him that he used it the wrong way, i think he would be damn embarassed if we tell him personally. Oh well people make mistake! but that is absolutely hilarious.The look on the camera hahaha, funny funny! x)  Had 2nd dinner at Geylang too, my first dinner was at home right before I set off -.-" The drinks were all rejuvenating . I felt like zombies for like 3/4 of the journey with my leg aching.The consequences of lack of exercise.damn it.I should do more cardio soon . Was really a nice experience with them all, journey home was cruising all the way , with bc and me, emo talking hahaha. and now I am here! As tired as ever! been a long time since I've felt this way. Tired but yet, feel good! (: 

After all this, I think I wouldnt be able to walk properly after I wake up from my sleep later but heck, it was a good leg workout! just recover fast can already. Last but not least Good morning people! happy Sunday! x)

home should be a place where we actually get out from our hectic lifestyle and get a break from all the stress right, in other word : an escape for us right , no ? but to me, it seems otherwise. when i'm home , i'm overwhelmed with a new set of troubles. under control, order and there's no room for me to even have a peace of mind , let alone, screaming myself out. responsibility of others are being dump onto my shoulder, increasing my stress - level. damn it . i feel myself every seconds,changing for the worst, temper from bad to worst. sigh, dont know what I can do to curb this things, I dont wanna end up being the bad guy but whatever it is i have to bear with it la. i wanna change for the better not worst , so please, i hope there would be some guidance for me.

the weather has been damn hot and is still hottttttt. i feel like i'm being bbq each time i walk under the sun.I don't know whether it is me turning gay-er or is it really the weather's becoming unbearable.whatever it is, to make matter worst, my immune system also has been sucky. flu/cold each morning or rather very frequently.I think I gotta start consuming healthy food, rich with vitamins and all. I need to get stronger ( yes i know i mention this a lot in my blog but this really mean a lot ) STRONGER.I think I've shrunk!!! damnit. stamina's dropping too.grrrr.CRAP, why cant we just maintain at our top performance always. must train this la train that la, boring siul. =X

time to relax la , sleep.

3 MEN GO INTO A MOTEL. THE MAN BEHIND THE DESK SAID THE RO OM IS $30, SO
EACH MAN PAID $10 AND WENT TO THE ROOM.

A WHILE LATER THE MAN BEHIND THE DESK REALIZED THE ROOM WAS ONLY $25, SO
HE SENT THE BELLBOY TO THE 3 GUYS' ROOM WITH $5.

ON THE WAY, THE BELLB OY COULDN'T FIGURE OUT HOW TO SPLIT $5 EVENLY
BETWEEN 3 MEN, SO HE GAVE EACH MAN A $1 AND KEPT THE OTHER $2 FOR
HIMSELF.

THIS MEANT THAT THE 3 MEN EACH PAID $9 FOR THE ROOM, WHICH IS A TOTAL OF
$27, ADD THE $2 THAT THE BELLBOY KEPT = $29.

WHERE IS THE OTHER DOLLAR? 

the previous ankle injury from old soccer match is back again, on and off. i think it require some medical attention.URGGGGH. and my hand muscle feel strain. and i'm feeling sick. flu/cold or whatever this crap. i'm tired.

It's hard to figure out and differentiate musics : vocal trance, trance, techno , eurodance , dance , electronica. Everything almost sounds similar but I guess I'm beginning to figure it out already. Somehow trance music just make me feel so relax. It's like I could feel my whole body just swaying with the beat of the music, lose myself in the music and just relax.The beauty of music (: a pity some people can't appreciate this type of musics.

now I've got a confession to make :
I LOVE TRANCE <3

My love is like footsteps in the snow, baby,
I follow you everywhere you go, baby.
The pain as light has come to wake you
But you will never realize
That I inspire the dreams that guide you baby.

Music is so beautiful that it can be a form of medicine to cure unhappiness at times.Now you see why I dream of becoming a DJ someday? If there's a will , there's a way. I saw a whole DJ set that time and it cost fifteen thousand. 0.0" what a dream toy for me man. for now, just make do with what I have, accoustic guitar! that good stuff has been rotting in my store room for pretty much some time already, I guess it's about time, I pick up a new skill and learn how to play it. Learning start soon! after I fix some stuff.

weekend's boring for me,been playing Cabal Online to kill time. just can't find motivation to do anything else.study also =/ tomorrow soccer tmr.Really look forward to it man, it's been a long time since i met up with my soccer buddies.Hope I don't lose my temper tomorrow again.I guess I'm turning in to sleep after this. so ya, goodnight people.

Happy people, Happy World.