A Place For My Head

hello livejournal and to the world.
this update is just to make you guys sure that i'm still alive and kicking!
back to gaming yo!

I've been really busy for the whole week. be in school activities or other commitment.
so many things happening, I barely had enough time to even breathe.
Sometimes I really try hard not to disappoint others and myself but some things just happen and pull me down hard.
sigh, sometimes I just don't know what to do when situation like this arise.
Had no one else to blame except me.
now I even have phobia for it. I don't know la,
I just hope I'll find a way soon to fix those things that have been broken.

Today went to school for some mini soccer competition. It was a pretty last minute thing but still I just played.
Could have won the competition but we lose it due to mistakes once again. nevertheless, we still got the second place and brought home a new ball. After that, went to botanic garden to take do photography assignment was pretty reluctant at first cause botanic garden really look boring but as I go deeper in, there were nicer things to see so yea, took a couple of shots and went home.

 
These are the places that I can feel
torn from my body, my flesh it peels. 
during this ride we can cut up what we like.
Waiting alone i cannot resist, 
feeling this hate i have never missed.
Please someone give me a reason to peel off my face

Blood it is pouring...

hurhur i just finish my report which is due on last friday! =.=" hahaha it's really last minute and with very little help I think I did not bad la for it. I just wanna know how a real report should look like so if there's any year 3 senior looking at this entry please hit me back and send me your report k! i just wanna see the format! thanks x) suddenly I like some old songs back again.. american rejects - swing swing...relient k - give until there's nothing left.. beautiful song with nice lyrics! if you havent heard them u better listen to them soon! imeem or youtube is a good source (:

No one told me
The right way
The right way to go about this
So I'll figure it out for myself
Cause how much
Is too much
To give you
Well I may never know
So I'll just give until there's nothing else
..

No one told me
How bad I need you (need you)
But I somehow arrived
To that conclusion all by myself (all by myself)
And I want
All you have to offer (to offer)
So I offer myself and I'll just give until there's nothing else.

Photography, sepak takraw  , floorball is fun.
studying isn't, especially when you don't know what the teacher is teaching. Right now, I have come to a conclusion that it's really the teacher to be blame. cause they can't teach for nuts. Given their knowledge, i would definitely do a better job. 200% sure. result was good but wasn't really the standard i wanted. I aim perfection and nothing less. why score lesser when you can score more ? make sense? yes. there's lot of assignments to be done and i'm gonna discipline myself for that hopefully.

some people fall in and out of love easily, like really damn fast ? LIKE CHANGING CLOTHES SIA..
yuck fou la homo. being in a long term relationships/many bgr relationships before doesn't mean you really know what love is. For all you know, the shit that you're experiencing is just some dumb ass crush feeling which die off damn easily so please please, don't anyhow say you're in love with someone la, knn really eyesore can ? i myself don't even know what love is but i fucking sure know that whoever in the situation i mentioned above also don't know what love is.i think love is really too strong a word to use la hor.maybe wait till you're really gonna get marriage dat time then say you're in love and i'll be convinced.THE WORST SHIT TO DO IS TO ACT ALL ROMANTIC WITH UR NICKNAMES. all those love quotes or bullshit that you thought of when you were stoning or whatever.wah, seriously make you look damn soft and gay can ?zzzzz homos. what has your schoool taught you? is this the side effect of studying too much nerd ? -.-" okay enough said, maybe now you should go and fold ur gay paper hearts for you "lover" _|_

i didn't update cause i'm not happy at all.
there's nothing happy for me to talk about or describe here.
some things are better left unsaid.

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three R’s: Respect for self Respect for others and Responsibility for all your actions.
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
7. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. It’s a way to achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.
17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

~ Dalai Lama.

 

hahaha i'm happy! today i started out my day feeling dull and all and I had to drag myself to BBDC to do my practice and evaluation at the same time.felt kinda dumb during the practice but thankfully there's answers for me to learn from mistake! then evaluation time..I PASSED! woot like the sex siol! hahaha, now must wait till 31 July for the riding theory test (: faster clear! faster get license faster happy xD nothing can be better than a morning breakfast: mee rebus, some funny mandarin orange green tea which tasted suprisingly nice and Calbee Potato chips! (: supposed to have a practical later but I'm feeling lazy and I guess i will give it a miss. lots of assignments to do still for this holiday so I better run!

As I took the normal path home, the long walk got my mind pretty busy thinking about lots of stuff.
Things like past relationships, friendship and all. and I told myself that today I'm going to update with something meaningful, if it's not to you, well at least to me I hope.Looking back now, I realised that I've met lots of beautiful soul in life which I didn't treasure much at all.As much as I regret not treasuring them, I guess I couldn't do anything much about it anymore about the situation now that time has really fly fast. Sometimes, I wish I could just go back time and repeat all those things I've been through with them again.But the reality is, It's all over and done with and there's nothing I could do about it. Honestly, I regret why I didn't do some of the things I SHOULD do and of course vice versa; doing things I shouldn't do. Right now, when I try to amend what was wrong is the first place, I just couldn't do it at all.I don't know where to start, or even how to begin with, and when I really just try, it didn't turn out the way it's suppose to be. People change over time and things wasn't like how it was before. Growing up; it seems to me ; a long painful learning journey. which we learn how to let go. It's easier said than done. I  still can't believe how some things turn out to be now. Friends going astray, no longer in contact etc, it hurts badly to know that's there nothing much you could do to help the situation ): All these happened for some reasons and one of the reason has got to do with me. If I had done something about it earlier on, maybe things would be better now somehow. sigh, so full of regrets. sometimes I just don't know how to carry on with things. I always aim for perfection in some areas but as a result, some things are neglected along the way. Today, I said many hurtful things to my friends which I really regret. Even though they seems to know that I'm just joking, I know that deep down inside,I hurt a little still.I know. I was in their shoe before. I'm sorry.I should be more thoughtful of their feelings. I hope I wouldn't repeat such actions again cause I'll never know if small things such as this could actually hurt friendship ties.big things start from small. so I'll do my best from now on to put in more effort in whatever stuff I do, be it maintaining a friendship or other stuff.

if you could give me one more chance to amend what's wrong, I would do this all right.

I honestly didnt receive the 10 dollars everyone received today after the event. Fucker don't know what that little cunt is thinking. sometimes maybe i should just hurt some soul and break some bones.